**Sleeping**

I read somewhere/saw on TV/someone told me once, that you can't sleep unless you feel safe.
The other day it occured to me, while watching a sleep number bedŽ commercial,
(I hate it when commercials last 20 minutes but you're too stoned to changed the channel),
that the person you sleep with should be a very special person.
Now, when i say "sleep with," i mean actually closing your eyes and getting sleep. You're
lying there in the dark next to someone. Someone you probably didn't grow up with, someone
you may not have trusted all your life. Breathing the same air, sharing the same warmth,
being eaten alive be the same bedbugs, slowly dying together.
When you're sleeping you are at your most vulnerable. Your partner can literally kill
you in your sleep, cut off body parts, or just plain be sophomorically cruel to you,
ie: draw on you, take pictures of you with shit in your nose, etc . . .
I don't think i thought about it much when i had someone sleeping there next to me.
I wasn't able to sleep very well with her there, and after she was gone, i was fucking
ecstatic about all the room i had. I actually slept diagonally for a few months,
it was great!

So why the hell do i want someone else in there??